I met with a road accident, again. I write ‘again’ because
those of you who know me would know about my affinity towards accidents. I
somehow attract them; the universe has bestowed me with unique powers. If you
observe closely, there are more scars on my body than skin. Each of them have a
unique story to tell and they are great conversation starters for any social
gathering but I still feel that I would have been better off without them.
This time I ended up getting a fracture on my left foot. Funnily
enough, I was initially even mildly excited at the knowledge of a fracture.
Somehow, the x-ray reports which showed a crack in my foot gave me an
adrenaline rush for some strange reason. In retrospective, I think it excited
me because it made my story more interesting. I believe that we are all
spinning the yarn of our stories and unless there is a tragedy and the
protagonist picks herself up emerges out strong, the story is not powerful
enough. However, the adrenaline rush staying true to its meaning did not last
long enough. My face fell the moment the doctor said that the cast would stay
for four to six weeks and advised minimal to no pressure on the left foot.
It is amazing how we become wiser and start understanding
the nuances of life when an adversity hits us. My bike skidded and I fell down
with it landing on my foot. I remember the people who stopped by fairly clearly.
I could identify two circles of people. The outer circle was the larger one. It
consisted of the curious ones, the ones who just wanted to know what happened.
They observed me for a while, expressed dismay at the accident and moved on. The
inner circle was the one that mattered, although it consisted of very few
people. The people in this circle lifted me and my bike up, gave me first aid,
offered water and asked me if I need a ride home. I believe the same thing is
true about life, the inner circle is very small, consists of four to five
people but it is the one that truly matters. These are the people who will lift
you up when you’re down and become your support system, these are the people
you can bank upon. We all need to identify this inner circle of ours, nourish
and cherish it throughout.
It is ironic how my happiness got a boost after the
accident. I suddenly became aware of all my blessings which I took for granted
throughout my life. I am grateful for the fact that I was and will, in another
month be able to walk myself to the washroom independently. I feel extremely
blessed knowing that I will not need to call out to my mom for getting water or
food. I feel blessed knowing that I will be able touch the ground with my bare
feet, run, jump, swim, dive and perform a full split. The very feeling of
having a certain capability which I lack today in future is extremely
gratifying. I feel invincible and capable of doing just anything. It is funny
how we take our blessings for granted until a few of them are taken away from us.
Now that I cannot walk around too much and have an excuse to
stay away from office, I have taken time out to indulge in myself. I have
decided to pamper myself with amazing coffee which I plan to make by perching
on the kitchen sill, while my mother would shout at top of her lungs asking me to
get down. I plan to read all the amazing books which I had stacked away in my
shelf for ‘someday’. I want to write to my heart’s content and flood my blog
with absolutely obnoxious to absolutely delightful content. I want to get
myself a facial and a massage. I want to dress up and look beautiful for myself. I want to think deeply and madly about life and my purpose in it and everything bizarre that I cannot take enough time out for on usual days. I want to drink coffee, lots of it; read books, lots of them and tell my mother lots of times that I adore her more than I can
ever express.
Even I had a accident last month .. got stiches and stuffs but at the end u know wat I found some adventure behind that also.. when I told my mum I m feeling awesome like after this shit that happened to me she thought I m gone crazy .. but in the end we fall so that we can pick over selves and rise again.good one writer..
ReplyDeleteI know it's really difficult to make someone else understand it; it is even difficult to make ourselves understand as to why we are experiencing happiness out of our misery but I guess somethings are just abstract.
DeleteWhat you wrote about the inner circle is absolutely true. Enjoy the indulgence, get better and come back soon. :)
ReplyDeleteIt is, isn't it? I will enjoy it. Thank you for the good wishes :)
DeleteSimply wow...:)
ReplyDeleteGet well soon...:)
Thank you :)
DeleteWell.... happy accident indeed
ReplyDelete:) haha...yes!
Deleteyou never cease to amuse me. The inner/outer circle analogy is brilliant and it really takes an accident to understand such analogies :D.
ReplyDeleteKeep reading/writing and get well soon.
I am glad you liked it :D. Yes, it's a funny thing though, to sit at the corner of the road contemplating about life :). I'll keep writing :).
ReplyDeleteI thought to ask you how all that happened but was thinking it would be irritating for you to answer the same things over and again. After reading this, I need not to.
ReplyDeleteAnd regarding that inner circle, yes it is there in our life and at accident there is something called bystander effect which prevents people surrounding to come and help(although it hasn't affected me ever :P )
Get well soon.!
hahah...yes, that's there. If the inner circle is already closed then people become conscious about coming closer to help. However, I was talking about the initial stages, when the circle is being formed :).
DeleteI am better already :). Thank you for the wishes!